Everything Can Change in a Second...

The day started with a four hour training session in Healthcare. My head was inundated with information but it didn't end there, I had to go back to my School and get four more hours of training, added to the eight I had the day before.

It didn't go by fast but at the end of a productive long two days of Information Overload, I felt content, grateful it was over for now and even a bit more confident!

I got home and found a delicious meal being served by my loving husband. I had this enormous feeling of gratitude to live in a beautiful place, have a loving family, surround myself with a great group of people who work as a team to make a huge difference in the lives of so many families. Can life get any better I thought to myself?

At that moment my phone reminded me that I had a voice message I had received while going around from training to training. The call was from the Radiology nurse. I was actually looking forward to the call, last week the doctor had decided to do a biopsy on a tiny spot he'd been watching, he just wanted to be certain. I'm sure it's scar tissue he said, I agreed, there's no cases in my family, I take care of myself and am very healthy, so I picked up the voice message on a speaker for my husband to stop worrying and we heard the nurse saying "Mrs. Shaffer can you please return my call I'd like to discuss the results of your Biopsy."

At that second I knew that my life was about to change....

Soon my physical body will change and I'll have to endure some very unexpected pain, but that's just the car that I decided to drive during this Life Adventure. My Spirit however will hop on the Shooting Star I'm about to ride and soar with it wherever it takes me.

Because Everything Can Change in a Second...

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Insatiable Curiosity!?...

Looking back at my life I realize I've always had what could be considered an obsession to finding out the answers. I used to think that was just a normal curiosity that everyone had so I never gave it a second thought, but the older I get I can now consider it more like an insatiable curiosity, if I want to know something I search for the answers non stop, that has led me to trust my intuition more and more, although it has also led me to have more questions that invariably arise from the answers.

Curiosity to what you ask? to anything and everything, to life, to death, to all the mysteries that arise from being a sentient thinker living in this realm experiencing life in the Broadest Possible Spectrum that exists in all of Creation.

I've always been a sceptic and never really a scholar, so I've had to rely on hours, weeks, months, years of research just to vaguely understand who we are, why we're here, what's our purpose, is there anything else, do we come back, who are the others, friends or foes, duality, dimensions, spirituality, religion, science, collective consciousness, quantum physics, sets of beliefs, the shadow and so many other things and the more answers I find that make sense to me and my intuition tells me I should pay attention to the more the questions arise.

So what do you do when you have some answers but still have so many questions, I guess if that was a question I had to answer to win a contest that at the same time would satisfy all that part of my life I've spent trying to get all the answers, I would have to say "I Trust Life!" and that alone satiates my "Insatiable Curiosity!"

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I Learned it All from Soccer...

I was born in the early 1950s in Mexico City. Back in those days and especially in my country of birth sports were not as popular with girls as they were with boys. I was never really interested in sports, I used to take ballet and piano lessons and always loved doing crafts of any kind, but that's a whole other story.

The only sports I've always loved watching are those where art prevails, like figure skating or gymnastics, I did try both of those when I was young but I was never very good at them, not sure why, perhaps I thought of myself as more fragile than I really was. I remember feeling afraid to try anything that went outside of my abilities. I tried many times to break that fear by attempting to learn sports like water or snow skiing, swimming, biking, running, even walking, but anytime I get into the habit of them something comes along to distract me from the consistent practice of a physical activity and every time I drop it, it takes me forever to get back.

The one sport that I really couldn't care less about because I've been inundated with it all my life is Soccer. That was the preferred sport where I grew up and lived the first 25 yrs., then when I became a mom my two kids became soccer players from the age of 3 and I was at every single practice and game for the next 10+ years.

Back in my childhood I had two brothers, my older brother was always focused on business and my younger brother David had Soccer in his heart. He had muscular dystrophy and by the age of 9 he was on a wheelchair so he never had a chance to play the sport he loved to watch, dream and talk about. "Gol del America!!!!" I remember him screaming when his favorite team scored. He might not have been on the field with his physical body, but he was in his heart and soul. He had created this simple quad notebook where he would cut 3 of the 4 sides of the little squares all over two pages side by side. They were cut in strategic areas and then he lifted as if it was a player standing up. Then he would roll a tiny little paper ball, make a goalie on each side and let the games begin.

He would make up his own games and became the player, announcer, referee even the team owner. He kept track of his games and his favorite team wasn't always the winner.

At the time I remember watching him and being in awe of what a great soccer announcer he was and now looking back I can see that he wasn't only living the game he was playing in it. I know that if he had lived longer he could have been a Soccer Announcer and become very loved and admired because of his strength of heart, passion for what he loved and the kindness and patience of an angel. I don't ever remember him complaining about his lot in life.

My uncles and cousins were also fans and players, I believe to this day some still play and so do their sons. Soccer was played at school and at the park, all you really need to play soccer is a flat field a black and while ball and a bunch of people of any age, race, social status, ability, gender, who want to run around kicking the ball and try to get it to hit that net that's being carefully guarded.

The years went on and I got remarried to an Italo/Argentinian. Are there any two groups of people who love soccer more? It turns out my husband feels the same way I do about soccer, but his son and now mine, who happens to live with us, LOVES!!!! and has been playing Soccer his whole life.

So these are just a few of the many things I've learned from Soccer.

1. LIFE IS A TEAM EFFORT, WE SHOULD ALL ROOT FOR AND HELP EACH OTHER.
No matter how good you are at it, how much money you make from it, how many people admire your skills, or how many goals you've scored, you still need a team who helps you along, who's not competing against you but rather giving you their gifts and talents so that you can score. And when you score they feel the same joy that you do because this is a team effort, just like family.

2. JOY IS WITHIN EVERYONES REACH. IT COMES FROM DOING WHAT YOU LOVE.
I'm convinced that even though David never got to play soccer, he felt as if he did, it gave him a reason to dream and not focus so much on his pain, it allowed him to feel passionate about something and it brought him many hours of entertainment, focus and excitement!

3.  YOU DON'T HAVE TO LOVE THE SAME THINGS OTHERS DO AND STILL FEEL JOY THROUGH THEIR JOY.
Even though I still don't care for soccer and wouldn't sit to watch a game by myself including the World Cup Finals, I have enjoyed every second that I've watched my brother, children, uncles, cousins, classmates, friends, neighbors play or get excited watching their team win. I get emotional when one of the countries where I have lived and felt at home wins a game. I have a foster son from Croatia that I haven't seen for years but I know how much he loves Soccer, so every time I hear the Croatian team won a game I think of him with love and joy.

Life is a simple game we play at every moment that doesn't require much, especially when we can play it together as a team.

"I Learned it All from Soccer"

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My Bucket List....

I was thinking about the items I have on my personal "Bucket List". Although I will confess that I've never really sat down to write a list or place each item in order of importance. I've been wanting to do that but I probably don't because if I want to pick one item to be my No. 1 I wouldn't know which one, they are all good and crossing off any of them will bring me just as much Joy.

I decided to start a list but rather than just numbering them, I will dedicate a whole blog entry to each one of them to remind myself of why it is that I think of it as part of that precious list I carry in my heart.

Today I was thinking of one in particular because of a song I was listening to while relaxing in the tub in the weee hours, when I wake up every morning of the week and use that time to watch fantastic videos that help me understand life better in every aspect and answer all my deepest questions. And sometimes I'm just in the mood to listen to my favorite music and this morning was one of them.

I was listening to happy upbeat music and some romantic old fashioned love songs and when Adam Levin started singing "The Way You Look Tonight" my Heart started to beat faster. Immediately I started to envision that Item I was talking about.

I have to go back to when I was a young child, my circumstances always threw me in the direction of dreams which in many cases became realities because I felt the emotions by living the dream in my mind, heart and many of my actions.

This items contains many of my yet to be fulfilled dreams of a well lived lifetime. I see my husband and I having this lovely party to celebrate our marriage, we got married in a beautiful Court right in front of the Pacific Ocean but there was nobody around to celebrate of witness the decision we had made to spend sharing each other as partners for the rest of our lives.  This will be perhaps in Argentina where his family is, with our four children there to celebrate with us.

We will take a professional dance class to have our first Dance as husband and wife, even though we've already been married almost 4 yrs. this June, we've yet to dance. Our first dance will be to the song "La Mer" because it was the song we chose as ours since we became friends years before we even thought one day we'd be husband and wife and the second song will be to "The Way You Look Tonight" sang by Adam Levine, who we will invite and he'd probably say hmmmm that's a good idea lets go to Argentina and travel around the country. And I even see us getting along as couples and going together to visit Patagonia with them :)

So there you have my first Item of my personal "Bucket List" in no particular order though.

Whichever Item I get to cross off that list I will be forever in gratitude as I am with all of the other ones that have come before and those that might come after.

What's in your "Bucket List?"

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"By George I think I Got It!"...

We've all had one of those "I Got It! moments when something so simple that was there all along was the answer to all your questions.

A few months ago I stumbled into a YouTube channel called Mindalia Television that I recommend to anyone who understands Spanish well enough to listen to all the different perceptions and views there are out there and the many levels of understanding or even Enlightenment which is growing every day.

You can spend months listening to all the different information and might even become confused with it all, the best part for me is that it's all free access to anyone who wants to know, those of us who are in search of answers to Mysteries of Life and beyond; it's not because of the cost as much as that fact alone gives it more credibility to me because nobody is trying to sell you an idea, they are just expressing or sharing on their views and you make the decision of what clicks with yours.

What I do is I pay attention to the similarities they have, the things they all have in common and I make my own conclusions combining what they say with what makes sense to me according to my own life Adventure as I've always chosen to call it which now I understand is actually wherever I'm at in my own level of Consciousness.

If I go back to what I've written here over the years before I knew any of this information existed, I realize I always knew what my heart was telling me was right, that life is simple, that everything is LOVE, that we are all one creating our own individual experience in order to reconnect back to "Oneness" as it's called and that the talents and dreams that we come with are there for a reason and just have to focus on doing what we LOVE which is what we ARE and let life flow as it comes, just like the River does, instead of living in FEAR which is not what we ARE.

This last month I've been focusing on this one man's perception of LIFE as we know it and it all clicked for me.

He goes into every aspect of LIFE and much more than that with as much detail and uses metaphors that we can all relate to. Like for example he says we are not our bodies or minds or even emotions, all those are "bodies" individual from each other. So we have our physical body, our emotional body and our mind body and then there's us, pure consciousness, pure energy, pure LOVE.

He puts the example of the physical body as the car we ride in for this life Adventure we chose. We don't identify with it or any of the other bodies that drive us through this Adventure, we just take care of them and use them for the purpose they were created for, the mind is to read a book, learn a subject, you don't identify with it either, you are the observer, not the thinker.

I won't go into all of the rest, everyone has to make their own interpretation to suit their level of consciousness, the point here is that when something comes to my life that makes sense to me and that something resonates with every cell in my body I feel a total sense of relief, as if I was carrying a heavy load and all of a sudden I feel like skipping in the park like I did when I was a little girl. That's the best description I can give it.

I may not "like" every thought that comes into my "Mind Body" every emotion in my "Emotional Body" or everything in my "Physical Body" but since I don't identify with them and they are the ones I decided to "Embody" when I came down into this 3D Adventure I give them my essence which is LOVE and that makes me LOVE the Adventure for all that it is and flow with it.

"By George I Think I Got It!"

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The Storyteller...

It's been a while since I wrote, for me writing takes mostly inspiration, in other words I have to be "In Spirit", but it also takes time, commitment, passion, heart or at least a couple of those components and lately my life is undergoing many changes, twists and turns and I'm focusing mostly on that.

I get inspired to write about something all the time, but lately when that happens my mind is either too tired to let the words flow or I'm doing something else at the moment.

I'm convinced that I was born to be a "Storyteller". I believe I've always known that but what I didn't know when I was growing up was that you're not supposed to postpone what "You're Born to Be", judge yourself for the way you do it or compare with others that do it as well. I grew up knowing that I had to do better than I did, I was told that by my parents, teachers, surrounded by others who did do it better than I did, I just got by. Looking back I realize that one of the reasons I never became passionate about anything while I was growing up like others did was the way school was taught and my own personal abilities to learn.

Now that I've been working for the school system and see how diligent they are at addressing every single child and teaching them the best way the child learns better, I realize how much of the education I was offered I missed because I just couldn't focus on all that information they offered me, I could retain some things but others I couldn't, my mind would wonder into this Magical World of Storytelling.

I could make up stories about anything as far back as I can remember. I believe that if school had been taught in a Storytelling manner I would have learned better, but it took me till I was living alone, on my own for the first time in my life, in my late 50s to realize this and now in my 60s I've only begun to scrape the surface of all those stories that I've held inside for so many years that seem like so many lifetimes ago, now only a handful of those millions of stories are still somewhat clear in my mind.

There are many ways that we engage in stories, it can be something as simple as someone next to us riding the bus home at the end or the beginning of the workweek, a total stranger we had never seen before or most likely will never see again, he or she has a story to tell like we all do, all that story needs is an audience other than yourself so it can be told, so if you were to engage in a short conversation with that stranger you may know things about them that could change your instant interpretation of them while perhaps identifying with a part of their story. And just by you listening to their story you are allowing it to be told. The person telling their story will get some sense of relief because having a story in your mind can weigh you down or excite you and by being able to tell someone about it you're either sharing on the burden or the excitement while connecting through it with another soul.

This is more evident than ever in this era of Technology, all you have to do is look at almost any site, especially those with platforms that lend themselves to the telling of one's own personal story which are in fact the most successful ones, ie. Facebook, Twitter, Blogger, Instagram, Youtube, any dating site, but it doesn't even have to be just Social Media it's also any company that has created a Website,

I know at least for myself that if I'm going to look at a company I have the habit of looking at the area where it says ABOUT US and the reason I do that is because I like humanizing the experience no matter if it is to buy a pair of shoes, some business cards or deposit at the Bank, I feel more of a connection when I realize there is someone behind all these words on a screen that are offering me a product or a service. Just like we did before the Internet changed the way we live our lives.

The other day I came up with some quotes that made a lot of sense to me:

"The plain fact is that the Planet does not need more successful people. But it does desperately need more peacemakers, healers, restores, storytellers and lovers of every kind. It needs people who live well in their places. It needs people with moral courage willing to join the fight to make the world habitable and humane. And these qualities have little to do with success the way we have defined it".
~ David W. Orr - Ecological Literacy: "Educating our Children for a Sustainable World".

"The purpose of a Storyteller is not to tell you how to think, but to give you questions to think upon".
~ Brandon Sanderson - "The Way of Kings".

We all have a story to tell and we all have the need for someone to listen to our story and at least for myself I want my story to be an ADVENTURE!

 Envision your story on a large movie screen and ask yourself "Would I go see that movie, is it interesting, will it hold my attention, is it going to make me laugh and cry and feel every emotion intensely, do I like how the music in the background makes me feel, did it teach me something, was it worth my time, how do I feel when I walk out of the theater, uplifted and energetic, sad and drained or perhaps with anger, fear or despair?

Would I read the book and buy the movie when it comes out on video so I can watch it again and again or will it be one of those movies that we see once when it comes out on TV in the weee hours of the morning when there is nothing else to watch and when you're 1/2 way through the movie you realize you already saw it once and didn't care for it?

Go make your life what you want it to be so you can be in total harmony with the story you tell. Believe me it's worth it, I know, I'm The Storyteller....

Hugs xoxo
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Let Go and Go With the Flow...

I always felt different, I'm sure we all do, but to me it manifested by not feeling at home anywhere outside of me and I must admit that for most of my life I was not comfortable inside either. I went through many ups and downs in my journey and when I was up I was flying high and would cling on to the feeling for as long as I could as if already knowing it wouldn't last, this was way before I started to realize that I was creating my own reality, I had no idea it was those very thoughts that were writing the next Chapters of my Life.

I don't feel shortchanged because I didn't know then what I'm starting to understand at this stage of my life, I feel fortunate and with so much gratitude that I was able to get to the point where I finally understand what it takes to grow, evolve, be grateful for every experience, to Make Life Happen On Purpose and With Purpose and look forward to what's yet to come.

Now I can actually wake up in the morning excited for the day to come. I still walk with cautious steps because it takes time to re-program the mind that has been telling me that what I'm living, experiencing, being, becoming, having was either good or bad, but I can say with all certainty and pride that I've worked hard understanding and taking responsibility for my "Life Adventure" and live it as such perhaps not every moment but pretty darn close to it.

I look for constant reminders, learning to trust my intuition based on the way things feel emotionally to me without judgement and I can see my thoughts and emotions coming to life before my eyes.

Now what happens to me from this other side of the river is that I look around me and see the people I'm in most contact with, my Micro Universe so to speak living the way I did for most of my life and I know they can't see it in themselves otherwise if they knew that how they are perceiving life and what they are and will continue to attract will be the opposite of what they want maybe something will hurt enough that they will say I don't like these results, what am I doing wrong? Is this as good as it gets?

I understand that most of the time these changes don't start to happen until the emotions we are feeling are either emotionally depleted or extreme sadness. At least that happened to me at some point and it got old feeling sad or unemotional so I went all out to find how to change that, otherwise life becomes a burden or boring at best and it might be a short life but it's long enough when you don't find motivation and you're not having fun most of the time.

We can change the way we perceive life, I do now, but we can't make those we love or surround ourselves with change the way they perceive theirs that's their path. I went from feeling like an outsider when I was on that side of the river and now I am the outsider on this side. I didn't appreciate enough the things that I had when I was there but I will be eternally grateful for the way I perceive what I lived then; and now instead of going against I decided to "Let Go and Go With the Flow!!...

Hugs xoxo
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Memories...

I had a fabulous experience the other day, I didn't even know that it would turn out that way but for a few hours I traveled straight to my past and my memories came rushing in. I had this ticket that my Husband gave me at Christmas time for a day at the movies at the old and beautifully refurbished Cinerama, the only one left in Seattle, WA. I had been wanting to go but it meant taking public transportation on a weekend day when I'm home, cozy trying to wind down from the workweek that is always intense for me because of my type of work. It also entailed walking to the bus stops with the weather we have here that so often rains, so I kept on postponing the movies that appealed to me like the newest Star Wars for example.

So last week I checked what was playing as I did every week for months, only to find that they were showing the only movie that I've wanted to see in years LaLaLand. That was definitely one that I had to see and what better than the Cinerama that brought me so many memories of my past growing up in Mexico City, I remember being IN LOVE with movies since I was a little girl, my father instilled that love in me because he too felt that way. My mom couldn't care less if she went to see a movie or not but my dad did and so did I and so do my kids because I took them to every appropriate movie they could see throughout the years.

I remember Cinerama being the first chain of its type in Mexico City where I was born and grew up. I believe they opened for the first time in 1962 when I was only 10 years old and could really appreciate what it took to create all that magic that transports you to a different emotions with every frame, action, site, script, music, at that time I wanted somehow to be involved in the movies so my way of involving myself without being in them, was to live them as if I was in them, as if I was one of the characters of the story.

There were two Cineramas that I used to frequent, one was around the statue of "La Diana Casadora" and the other one was the "Hollywood Cinerama" that was across from the CDI, the place where we did everything outside of school, a sports center my family and all the other Jewish families who lived in Mexico City went to for sports, daycare, classes, theater, shows, weddings, events, concerts, exhibitions, celebrities, trips and I could go on and on when I remember how convenient it all was for us then. How much easier it was to connect with the people that you knew your whole life, you saw them at school, at camp and lets not forget the CDI.

On top of it all you had to do if you wanted to go to the movies with your family or with your friends was cross the street to the "Hollywood Cinerama" and voila, you had the best just across the street.

For years I have believed that the past circumstances were easier, lighter, better, but this past Sunday I remembered the things that made it not better than how I view my life Here and Now, when I'm already entering the Winter of my life, when I should be slowing down and discarding my dreams, those that I didn't accomplish yet, when my life should be settling in and not having to concern myself with the future or what it may bright with it.

There is no doubt in my mind that the past was fantastic with everything it brought into my life, but I couldn't see it then nor take full advantage of it because of all the huge challenges that it brought with it,  seems to me that I lived my past just jumping hurdles and not necessarily enjoying it or learning from them, more of what you would consider the life of a victim as opposed to the way I live and view my life now, a fabulous adventure filled with all the contrast necessary to promote your emotional and spiritual growth.

So last Sunday I took the Bus to Westlake Station, the ride alone was like a ride at Disneyland, it travels through neighborhood streets, long two way streets, the freeway and then you go underground where it stops at several underground beautifully kept stations and the part that took my breath away with a combination of surprise, a little fear and amazement was when it went through this concrete pipe-like tunnel where only the bus fits and going through many curves at what seemed like high speed to me. You couldn't see where the tunnels ended so for a while I was conscious that we were many feet underground inside a tube.

Once I got to Westlake Station I took a little while to walk around it. What a beautiful old fashioned station, I've traveled to many places and not all stations are as elegant, inviting, clean, well patrolled and as precise as this one.

I saw how deep we were when I finally went up the escalators that take you back to the street level. It was a cold and rainy day so I was happy that I dressed for the part. On my way to the theater I stopped at my husband's place of work. He came outside through the back alley with his black apron and headband. We both looked like two teenagers who were sneaking to see each other for a moment to steal a kiss.

The theater was just at the end of the block so we said goodbye and I went my way. Inside the theater didn't let you forget where you were, it had the same blue colored tiles all over including the bathrooms, the same red and white and blue signs and even had memorabilia on display.

The movie was all and more of what I had expected, all the emotion of those wonderful Musicals I grew up with, the ones my dad introduced me to when I was a little girl, that created the magical feelings and dreams that carried me through life, bringing me here to this moment when I can cherish and appreciate everything that was that brought me what is.

The most wonderful reminders that I have found of how much one can do, be, have, feel in this lifetime are our Memories... I will remember this day forever!

Hugs xoxo
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Como Decía Mi Mamá...

Yo estoy convencida de que mi mamá era un Angel con cuerpo de humano, no porque nunca haya hecho nada inapropiado sino porque tenía el más grande de los corazones que yo he conocido. No me quedó muy claro el porque de todo el sufrimiento que ella vivió en su vida, cosas que hubieran creado monstruos de otras personas que lo hubiesen tenido que vivir y sin embargo ella fue bondadosa y generosa hasta el último momento a pesar de sus experiencias de vida.

Yo creo que una de las razones por las que yo siempre me resistí a ser como mi mamá fue por lo mucho que la vi sufrir, tanto como de niña y más aún como adulto. Al ver lo vulnerable que fue su vida yo decidí salir a buscar mi camino de una manera muy distinta.

Después de muchos años de buscarle el sentido a la vida y con el entendimiento de que somos nosotros los que pavimentamos de uno en uno nuestro propio camino entiendo que tiene que haber un balance entre lo que sentimos, lo que pensamos y lo que hacemos para ser esos Angeles en la vida de los demás sin dejar de serlo en la nuestra.

Hace unos años escuchaba a diario un programa de radio conducido por la Dra. Laura Schlessinger, el show consistía en que sus radio escuchas la llamaban por teléfono para hacerle una pregunta de como manejar algún entronque en el que se encontraban en sus vidas y ella les daba una respuesta de dos minutos a cada una de las preguntas por complicadas o sencillas que fueran solo les regalaba dos minutos.

Es de entenderse que en dos minutos no puedes darle ninguna vuelta a cualquier tema ya que nadie sacaría beneficios de su llamada, lo que ella hacía era ir directo al corazón del tema. Eso la hacía sonar dura porque la verdad a veces es dura, pero si alguien no te la dice y tu no puedes verla ya que estas permitiendo que tu vida no esté en armonía no vas a poder darte cuenta de que eres tu el que está creando esa falta de armonía en tu propia vida.

Gracias a las lecciones que mi mamá me dio en combinación con las que he aprendido a lo largo de mi Aventura de Vida he tratado de combinar el amor, la bondad, el servicio a los demás, junto con mi propio valor, autoestima y perseverancia en mi camino a cumplir todos y cada uno de mis sueños.

Al mismo tiempo también he aprendido que si alguien acude a mi para darme un consejo de algo que ven en mi que tal vez yo no haya logrado ver, darle la consideración necesaria y buscarlo en mi, ya que no mucha gente tiene el valor de decirte algo que pudiera o no ser lo que tu quieras escuchar o reconocer y cuando alguien acude a mi para pedir mi opinión o tal vez un consejo sigo mi corazón que me dice que tengo la obligación de ir directo al corazón del asunto y responderles lo que yo veo en ellos aún cuando sea algo que ellos no quisieran escuchar o logren ver en si mismos, de otra manera mis palabras serían falsas, algo que nunca he sido o terminarían por no tener ningún valor para aquel que ha decidido acceder a mi en esencia para ver como yo manejaría la situación en la que ellos se encuentran.

Mi madre tenía mucha sabiduría porque escuchó a su corazón que le decía que el amor es lo único que existe y que hay que darlo incondicionalmente, lo que nunca supo es que ella también formaba parte de todos a quienes ella daba amor y que sus deseos y sus sueños también valían, que si los tenemos es porque venimos a cumplirlos, de otra manera no los tendríamos.

Al final de su vida mi hija le hizo una pregunta "Hay algo que hubieras querido ser?" y ella le respondió que le hubiese gustado ser Arqueologa!!! su respuesta me dejó muda primero porque ella y yo teníamos una linda relación y hablábamos mucho y sin embargo jamás me mencionó siquiera que le interesara la Arqueología yo me imaginaba a mi mamá más bien en el campo de la medicina porque ella actuaba como la enfermera de tantos dentro y fuera de nuestra familia, eso me demostró que tal vez yo nunca conocí su Espíritu, aquella Alma libre que viene a esta dimensión a hacer correcciones y a cumplir sueños, por lo que yo hoy me dedico a cumplir los míos y lo hago por mí, por ella y por todos aquellos que se fueron antes de lograr cumplirlos y trato a la vez de ayudar a otros a cumplir los suyos cada vez que puedo.

"Como Decía Mi Mamá" "Sé Feliz Anita!" lo que me hace seguir mi camino con la alegría de saber que estoy cumpliendo sus deseos y los míos.

Abrazos xoxo
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We Just Have to...

It's been a fascinating adventure from the moment that my husband and I made the decision to move to the US only 3 short years ago. I had lived here most of my adult life, since 1979 to be exact, but a few years back things happened and I decided to move away to try to figure out who I was and what I was capable of.

So three years ago I came back to the place I call home only this time there was someone else with me, the man I decided to continue this life adventure with and he had never been to the USA before nor does he speak the language. We really had no idea what we were going to do, how we were going to survive, where we were going to live, to work, to make ends meet and then to grow to get the vision that I hold of my life.

I have to admit that at times I've had my doubts but the majority of the time I didn't. I just went day by day walking in the direction of my dreams and sometimes making what before I would have seen as scary decisions only this time I knew inside what felt right.

It's only 3 yrs. later, it's been an adventure that I would have never wanted to miss, although I've wanted to quit and escape the many challenges that appeared in our path many times. From health to weight gain to a place to call home, to work, to exhaustion to lack of funds to adjustment to all the many changes and roles that we have to play to get back to the other side, where we can pick up where I left off years back, traveling and visiting every corner of the world, helping people in whatever we have to offer, sharing wonderful moments surrounded by family, growing our own organic produce, having a place to receive our loved ones.

The more we've walked in trust the more we've grown and the faster things fall into place giving us all the opportunities that we were hoping to have only a short while back. Today we both have jobs we love, we get to help others, we have a lovely place to call home where we can sit by the fire, cook outdoors on the grill and even plant some organic produce, we spent the holidays surrounded by the Love of our family for the first time in a long time,  I even got my bounce back, I walk in confidence and opportunities for growth keep on appearing without having to go out and look for them, that part already stayed back in the past, the challenges now are more about steps we each continue to take to access more of our own abilities and continue growing and crossing off wishes from our individual "Bucket Lists".

I get excited just thinking about all the different experiences that will no doubt continue to appear because "That's How the Universe Works"!!!...

Don't walk or run, just bounce, don't think just act, don't ask just give, don't compete just win, don't smile just laugh, don't mope just cry, don't just dream, imagine! and most important of all don't Hope just KNOW!. All you have to do is be in complete Gratitude of everything that has ever been that took you all the way to where you are right now, look around you and see how well that works for Nature and Trust.

We just have to... Make Life Happen on Purpose and With Purpose!!!



Hugs xoxo
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Yo Te Amo como Tu Me Amas...

"Como pasa rápido la vida me dijo Matías ésta mañana". Me contó de una amiga que se había propuesto ir a la Facultad de Odontología y de como a el le había parecido algo imposible ya que le auguró a su amiga que no la terminaría y ahora está a solo un año y medio de terminar lo que a Matías le despertó la realización de que la vida es solo Aquí y Ahora y que las decisiones que tomes son las que están haciendo que tu destino tome uno u otro camino. Esto es a lo que yo llamo Karma, al destino al que tu quieras llegar dedícale toda tu Energía.

Hace ya seis años yo hice un viaje verdaderamente MARAVILLOSO!!!! conocí a gente hermosa que permanecería por siempre en mi vida, conocí un país que no estaba ni siquiera cerca del lugar al cual yo visitaría antes de haber visitado los lugares de mis sueños que aún no conozco, pero se dio así y yo no quise desaprovechar la oportunidad.

Gracias a mi instinto de curiosidad y mis deseos por conocer todo el mundo viajé con alguien quien no merecía de mi compañía. Por supuesto que lo hice por mí, por conocer, por tener con quien ir porque llevaba yo 10 años de viajar sola y la verdad es mucho más lindo compartir tus aventuras con alguien, aunque en mis viajes también conocí a tanta gente que por esos momentos se volvían mis mejores amigos. Ahí fue adonde tomé esta foto que hoy inspira mi artículo.

Tendría yo que escribir un libro tan solo de los viajes que hice y a la gente con quien me topé en el camino, las cosas que vi, los cambios que tuve, las experiencias que viví, la sensación de soledad y a su vez de Libertad que los humanos raramente nos permitimos sentir porque a lo largo del camino nos topamos con tantos retos y la falta de alguien a quien le importe tu vida puede ser algo difícil, es algo así como cuando rompes un hábito que has tenido desde el día en que naciste, todos me decían que admiraban el valor que yo tenía, pero yo no lo veía como valor sino con una sensación de libertad que me hacía querer volar, pero al mismo tiempo me costaba mucho motivarme hasta que un día por fin acepté que si me podía motivar yo sola, lo que se presentara en mi vida iba a ser para complementarla pero nunca más para apoyarme en esa o esas personas que decidan caminar al lado mío por la vida ni para darles la responsabilidad de que sean mi razón de encontrar la felicidad porque entendí que la felicidad no es una persona ni un lugar sino simplemente una decisión a pesar de todo lo que nos rodea.

Cuando logré encontrar la motivación dentro de mi misma y seguir por el camino en el que mejor me sentía en ese momento todo se empezó a alinear. Eso no quiere decir que dejas de tener sueños que involucran a otros personajes como parte de tu historia, pero lo que si descubres es que la manera en que la mayoría de los humanos vivimos no es la que te trae los mejores resultados.

Para mí cruzar el río ha tenido muchas revolcadas en aguas poderosas y a veces agresivas, me tuve que golpear con muchas piedras a lo largo del camino pero una vez que llegué al otro lado del cauce y entré en aguas transparentes y tranquilas me di cuenta de que fácil hubiese sido cortar camino.

Nos pasamos toda la vida poniendo nuestra energía emocional en los lugares incorrectos que nos van a terminar redituando muy poco a cambio de lo que nosotros tenemos que invertir. No estoy tratando de comparar las relaciones humanas con lo material esto es solamente a nivel de energía emocional, porque todos sabemos muy bien que como humanos pensantes y con sentimientos el mantener esa energía emocional siempre en el lado positivo nos va a redituar una vida plena, con alegrías, buenas relaciones humanas, buenos resultados en todo lo que nos propongamos hacer, pero también sabemos que cuando esa energía emocional está baja o de plano no existe todo lo que hacemos nos causa incomodidad y hasta agonía.

Y lo más extraño de todo es que la solución (en mi opinión y experiencias personales como todo lo que yo escribo) es Tan Sencilla!!!!

Fijate en tus acciones y ve a quien le estás dedicando tu tiempo, tus pensamientos, hasta tu economía. Si esas personas son las que más tiempo, pensamiento y en general energía emocional positiva están invirtiendo y siempre han invertido en tí entonces sí, adelante, esas son las personas más merecedoras de lo que tu te sientas capaz y deseoso de dar.

Esas son las personas que nos han comprobado que a pesar de todas nuestras debilidades siempre están ahí con todo. No porque no tengas que hacer nada para tener lo que esa persona le ofrece a tu vida quiere decir que no tengas que hacer nada para regalarles aún más alegría, recargarlos de amor y de todo lo que tu sabes que les trae aun más alegría sin limite, haz que les fluya porque tu ya sabes que todo lo que tu les des siempre lo vas a recibir de regreso a manos llenas. Digamos que es el mejor camino a seguir, al lado de aquellos que quieren estar a tu lado incondicionalmente.

Todo el resto del mundo también merece de nuestro Amor y yo trato de vivir mi vida con una cálida palabra y una sonrisa para todo aquel que cruza mi camino, pero "Yo Te Amo como Tú Me Amas!"

Les quiero desear a todos y cada uno que este Año encuentren la Mágia en la Vida!

Abrazos xoxo
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