As Seen on TV...

Our Chat with Espresso this morning was about the influence that TV has had in our lives. There's been a TV around me from the day I was born in January of 1952. Looking back it seems like such a long time ago when TV was still Black and White. The one thing I recall vividly for some reason are some of the different TVs that we had in my house when I was a child. I recall this large piece of furniture I must have been 2 yrs. old, today with a surface of that size you can put up a large screen TV that looks like you're in the theater maybe a 52in. screen or a bit larger and that big piece of furniture then only held maybe a 20 in. screen that if you were sitting far back enough you may not be able to make out some of the details.

Of course there were no remote controls, not even to turn it on of off, which to me it was a good thing, every time you got off your butt to change a channel you had a chance to stretch your legs, mingle with the family, maybe go to the bathroom, pour a cold glass of carbonated water for you and your husband, you know detach from that hypnotic state that we get into when we watch that box.

I lived the era when we had these see through harder plastic covers with colors on them. You would place them in front of the TV screen and it turned the black and white into the colors that were on the plastic. Why this was invented and why my dad would buy it I have no idea, I mean what was the chance that the pink would be on all the faces and the green on the grass 0 so it must have looked distorted at best.

And do you remember how deep those screens were? I had an Uncle, my father's only brother I have very fond memories of him, el Tío Pepe we called him. He was a TV repairman. His house was always full of TVs that he was repairing, there were these bulbs you used to have to change from the back of the TV, the bulb would burn out and the TV would stop working, so you had to carry that huge glass screen and take it to a place like my Uncle's and they would fix it for you, it wasn't that cheap even then and what a drag. Then repairmen got smarter and started making house visits charging extra. 

TVs were expensive for a middle class family of 5, you could only have a medium size one in the living room for the whole family to sit and watch. That was actually nice because it kept us closer together as a family. The kids were allowed to watch till 8:00 pm on weekdays and 10:00 on weekends. 

Some of my fondest memories of my childhood come from the shows on TV I used to watch. Cachirulo and his Fairy Tales, Club Quintito, Topo Gigio, talent, game shows, comedies. 

There are many shows on TV that I like, but I don't really seem to find any when I'm alone. I rather spend my time with the things I want to do like writing than watch how others do things while I'm sitting here watching them.

My husband on the other hand can't live without TV, so the moment we wake up he turns it on. He loves to watch the news, re-runs of our Argentinian Soap Operas from the day before he missed because he was at work and sometimes I notice that he leaves on whatever, like sports for example that he doesn't really like. I think it's just this need to hear sounds perhaps to relax his own thoughts. I rather put a meditation tape and set my intentions for the day, recharge my energy, increase my vibrations, or listen to whatever music puts me in the mood that I want to be at that moment, perhaps nostalgic, maybe happy, or to concentrate and write and anything in between. 

Lately I've been proving to my husband how what we watch on TV first thing in the morning changes what happens throughout your day. Instead of watching news or soaps we watch re-runs of some of my favorite shows like Frasier. We both laugh so loud every time we watch Frasier even though my husband doesn't really understand what they are saying, they speak in a very tight and more polished English, but they're so expressive in their actions and their relationships are so consistent that you get to expect the reactions and it keeps you happy and laughing, such a magical way to start the day for me. 

It's unusual that once he leaves the house I would keep the TV on unless of course I know there will be a re-run of one of the shows I follow and couldn't watch last night, like The Voice for example. I adore talent shows, always have, so much amazing talent out there it's a privilege for me to watch them. I even get up and applaud. I keep it on many times because right after Frasier comes Cheers. Another well done clever, intelligent and charming. Makes me feel happy, as if I was there at the Bar flirting with Sam and laughing with them. I think I'd order a frozen Mango Margarita.

I wouldn't have dreamt that one day we could watch TV on a wristwatch like Maxwell Smart, in the car, on the Airplane, have a movie theater inside the house with surround sound a huge flat screen and front row recliners, program it to record what you want to watch and of course no more getting up and changing the channels, nowadays they even make it hard for you to find the buttons on the TV you have to push to change the channels, sometimes you have to read manuals or watch videos to know how to work some of these remotes. I rather push the on and off  button if you ask me.

I wouldn't mind going back to black and white if I had to erase a few of the advances we have that make us put more and more distance between each other, that reminds us every day of all the cruelty that exists in the world and how in spite of the fact that we know that and all the best intentions of some many good people out there in this Wonderful World of Ours, EGO is at an all time hi. As Seen on TV...

Hugs xoxo

@nit@

Everything is Always Working Out for Me!...

A few weeks back I stumbled into this video I'm sharing with you here, I loved it immediately the first time I heard it, like a little child I played it over and over again for hours, even if it was just in the background as a sound I let it penetrate all the way through to my subconscious mind, she seems to be the one in charge so I give her what she seems to need or want and see what happens after that. Then once the honeymoon was over I started to listen to it just when I needed a boost in my energy or my belief, sometimes we may stumble into a challenge, feel down and this seems to do it for me, its an easy fix and most of all enjoyable to listen.

Now I'm at the point that I know exactly what to listen to and when, to always reach for the best possible emotion and stay there for as long as possible, with the understanding that it is I who determines if it is possible or not.

The more I listen the more I realize and accept that 'Everything is Always Working Out for Me', that maybe the consequences or the emotions felt weren't what I was thinking they would be, but even then, I learned how to listen to The Music in Everything that Surrounds me.

Yesterday I was talking to a lovely handsome young man, my daughter's good friend, they were at the airport and I was home and the call just flowed mostly went into music. What I told him was that my awareness tells me that every moment has to be lived as intensely as the emotions that we feel when we watch a movie. That to me one of the Main Characters in a movie is The Music, at the same level as the story, the protagonist, the challenge and the conclusion. Up there with all of them. With any of these components missing it just can't be as a good a movie.

I grew up watching movies to escape my own reality which was very challenging throughout. The music transported me to my emotions and I would become the protagonist of each movie that would truly touch my heart. The emotions were strong enough to keep me always feeling content and then things I lived emotionally through movies would come into my reality and they never would feel the same that I felt emotionally while watching the movie. I couldn't understand why that was.

So one day I was taking this University Course, they call it 'Diplomado' in Mexico, I have this dream of making my own movie, that one I knew exactly how it felt and there was a lot of everything in it, Drama, Tragedy, Comedy, Adventure, even Terror at some point. Just like a life I suppose. At that Course that was how to Write and Produce a Movie and they had this class given by a Professor of Music and director of The Association of Music in Movies who came from Spain to give this course.

Would you believe this little class in a little town from this big man turned on the light and gave me the answer. It was the Music that made the difference. The Music was the main character in order for me to feel the emotion of what I was just watching on a screen. Without the music I probably would have felt more flat. In real life, unless I make a conscious effort to listen to the music that life brings along with it, you may fall flat to the emotion and not allow yourself to feel it as it was intended to be felt.

My life at the point when I had that realization had already taken an enormous leap from where it started a few years back, but this realization made it very clear to me that I was responsible for my thoughts, for the things I do with those thoughts and with the way I feel inside. The music has been a therapy for me because I, like many, have this ability to play the tune that I want to hear according to the way I want to feel and accomplish feeling the way I wanted. That's the best Medicine I could have found for my Heart.

Everything is Always Working Out for All of Us!...

Hugs xoxo
@nit@

I Quien Creo YO que Soy?…

3:30 de la mañana, ésta se ha convertido en mi hora favorita para escribir. La casa está en orden, ya tomamos espresso y mi esposo se fué al trabajo, es Domingo, todo un día completito para desconectarme de mi trabajo y todos los roles que hago en mi día a día, toda una mañana para mi. 

Me gusta mi compañía, mis actividades, mis hobbies, la música que escucho, la vegetación que me rodea, los libros o artículos que leo a diario, las fotos que tomo, el departamento en el que vivo, la vista que tengo, las cosas que estudio, los shows que veo en la TV, la comida que como, las siestas que tomo. Mejor compañía que yo para mí IMPOSIBLE!

Es muy raro que yo sienta soledad a menos de que extrañe a alguien en particular y de vez en cuando que llega a suceder me siento a escribir y me recuerdo de lo mucho que amo mi vida y de lo afortunada que soy al poderme contener y mantenerme en paz sin importar lo que me rodea o mis circunstancias y mantenerme entusiasmada por los proyectos que aún me quedan por cruzar en mi “Bucket List”! 

Pero quien soy yo?, a pocos les importo a muchos no, lo único importante para mí es haber logrado llegar a éste momento en mi vida en el que siempre quise estar, en el que acepto quien soy, lo que la vida me ofrece, gozo cada momento que me toca vivir incluyendo los retos que se me presentan y nunca dejo de soñar. 

I quien creo YO que soy? Soy la que paso desapercibida mientras que a través de mi trabajo o fuera de él toco la vida de tantas personas con deseo de regalarles aunque sea por un momento algo positivo algo que les cause una sonrisa, alegría, orgullo, esperanza o simplemente que los ponga a pensar... 

Y Quien Creo que YO Soy!?… Nadie en especial...solo Paz!

Abrazos xoxo

@nit@

Where is The Music?... by @nit@

Before I have to go through the 'EXIT' door I promised myself I would write my story and I always keep my promises. Just so it's there to attest that I was here, that I existed that my life mattered,  that it was an "ADVENTURE" and that the power of one ordinary Mexican, Jewish, American, Israeli, British Citizen and soon to be Italian and Argentinian can be huge without even being noticed. (I should find out who is the person with the most Nationalities in the Guinness Book of World Records. maybe I'm it! ;)

But let's start at the end and we'll go backwards, because if anyone should take the time to read my Adventure needs to know if it's worth it to them because of the outcome, maybe you can identify with something and consider a different perspective for your Adventure.

I've always had thousands of questions about life, parenting, relationships, how to be in harmony with what is, acquiring tools and skills to be someone, to have things, how to pick yourself up if you fall all the way to the ground or should you catch yourself halfway? will you learn as much if you do that than if you fall all the way down? Is there anybody out there who really cares? or are we all just there when we get something back? What does that something need to be? I read the books, took the courses, read the articles, then I even started to write them, I began to understand but couldn't quite get the results I wanted, or at least the ones I thought I wanted.

I had no idea how to find out so I went and looked for the answers in my decisions, in my travels and in my many Adventures. To most it might be just an ordinary life but to me it was a Roller Coaster of Feelings and Emotions. Most of the time nobody knew anything that I was doing or feeling and yet at one point in my life I would have been petrified of being on my own. Agoraphobia, Depression, Anxiety Attacks, OMG I was invaded by Aliens! I had to go find out Who I was and What I was capable of , but I was older when that happened, I felt tired, defeated, so one day I picked up my suitcase and I just did it "I left to find the Music in My Life's Adventure".

So we are going to start at the End then you decide if you want to read on to how it all got me to this moment in "The Adventure of My Life" ...

Even if nobody ever reads my story, I can cross "Writing My Story" off my Bucket List, and isn't that what life is all about?

Off to Work for now helping someone with whatever talent or knowledge I might have acquired on my Journey, My Adventure...

Stay Tumed...

Hugs xoxo
@nit@

You are ONE of a kind...

In order for a video like this to work you really have to believe you are all of those things so watch it carefully and ask yourself a very important question, am I really all of those things, do I believe it?

If you don't believe it now, become it, and next time when you have to go look for a job, instead of sending a Curriculum send them this video and tell them, "I'm all that, now will you hire me?" ;)

Enjoy the process of getting there!

Hugs everyone xoxo
@nit@

Yes it’s a Daybreak!...

I was listening to Barry Manilow’s songs tonight, they help and inspire me to keep on believing because I finally came to understand that all these people who had become GREAT at something, anything, were just people who believed, and whatever it is that I still want to become and haven’t yet, is because sometimes it’s hard to believe because you have been without for a while and you forget what it feels like to have.

As Daybreak started to play, for a moment I wondered if I would remember the words, it has been a long time since I last heard that song, I found that I did remember the words, for some reason I memorize many songs and never forget them, even in languages I don’t understand, but what I also noticed was that I never paid attention to the meaning of the words, and that this is not the first time that this happens to me with a song.

I even remember as an adult singing children’s songs to my kids, and as I was listening to the words that were coming out of my mouth, to see what I was teaching them, I paid attention to the meaning perhaps for the first time. It sure came as a surprise to me to realize I have done this many times throughout my life, so now I try to listen and pay attention to the meaning intended when the artists wrote and sang the songs, and try to imagine what was behind them.

Tonight I was having a particular enlightening type of an evening, and when I feel like that, songs seem to talk to me, and Day break sure did.
And as I listen and sing and dance to this music, feeling it deep inside of me, I realize I’m already making it shine, shine, shine all around the world!
YES IT’S DAY BREAK!